Un-hungry

I can't stand it... not even the thing that makes me sorta happy is working for me today... I AM NOT HUNGRY!!! It's so very frustrating...

You know, there's something about being stuck that's irritating and frustrating, but even more worser - being unhappy AND stuck. The worst! I mean... if you were unhappy yet seeing some sorta relief... that woulda been just a tad better... but the feeling of stagnating unhappiness... woof. That's how I feel from time to time...

I wonder if moving out would assist this a bit... for instance - I really don't feel up to par today. I would love to go home and rest... peace and tranquility for a bit. But that's frustrating since - well - there is not peace and quiet in my mom's house. Nor do I have my own space... so that's a bust. And I know if I go to the gym (got a training partner, abs class and Spin class waiting for me this evening) I'd frustrate myself even more - I won't be productive (cuz I just ain't eating!!!) or effective. Ach. So in this way, moving out would assist the situation.

I have a headache just thinking about it all...

Should I skip the gym and everything altogether and call up a friend and hit the cafe? Catch a movie? Ah - man - all I wanna do is read my book (current reading: By the River Piedra I Sat and Wept by Paulo Coehlo) in a quiet, cool place until I fall right asleep in no time... and rest this headache/icky feeling away.

The most horrid thing though - it's midday, I ain't eat nothin' yet, and my stomach is still churning thinking about food... how sick or frustrated can I be?!?!!? I mean, I ain't no eating fanatic, but I have always had a healthy appetite... woof. This has never ever happened to me before... not even during the most stressful exam times.

Random bit - you know my friend "Odwa" told me that he thinks I got to be even more undecisive and unsure of myself since he last talked to me (last year)... how horrid!! At 22, shouldn't I have a bit more going on? A tad more stability?? Holy crap - are you seeing this post??? If my unsureness were any clearer here... hmm... woof.

"You're not having lunch?", a coworker just came in and asked.

"Nope - just not hungry." I think it shocked him just as much as it initially shocked me.

*Zuper flies off back to her excel sheet*