Eine woche!

Ja ja... ich weisssssssssssss... it's been just about (ok, over!) a week.

But ich war in training from Montag to Thurs-tag... from 8am - 4pm. Let me be more precise... ich war in a very tediously monotonous training session. Woof. I mean, the guy (instructor) knows his stuff - no lie - but the scope was so broad and so - er - uninteresting to go into such depth and hop and skip all over the place - who doesn't prefer consistency?

Oi... that brings something else to mind - and in going with this blog entry (hopping and skipping, aren't I?) - I AM THAT MAN! I am probably the most inconsistent, horribly in-un-dis-decisive person you could meet! Geez... it's frustrating... (think I'm schizo?)

Why the heck did I go to fricking IUB? Holy cowunga... I've gotten a taste of ... something... and I just cannot be content without it. I love Trinidad... I love the weather, the beaches, the culture... but... but... (BUT WHAT?!)

Darnit...

You know when you have an image in your head of how things should be... yet the reality barely matches?

I'm seriously thinking of a huge change... I am giving myself until the end of my 22nd year of life (24th of August, to be exact)... if some hope is not injected into my life (or perception thereof) by then, on August 25th, 2006 I am going to change my hair and organise to hit the road... more specifically, make plans for the working-holiday visa (UK).

If hope - some kind of hope - surfaces, then I'd give myself (or 'it') until the end of the year... if hope doesn't bud a fruit, English plan it is.

Signed and sealed.

Why blog this info? Perhaps to remind myself - you know, when the Ann comes out and Sue takes a rest...

**'Split personality' by Pink starts to play... - "Tell me what do they see when they look at me... do they see my many personalities... ooh ooh oh... Can you help me, does anyone hear me... can they even see me, this is my reality, oh oh... So I'm putting it all on the table... you don't know me well enough to label me sick or even disturbed, when you break it down I'm just two girls... trying to blend trying to vibe *trying*... trying to live just one life *it's so hard!* everybody's got insanities, I've got a split personality"**

Oi...

So, I have something to look forward to tomorrow... something I've been looking forward to for such a long time. I am finally meeting up with (not boucning up) one of my favourite persons... B.J. (oh like Barney!!! "BJ is the one!") . We have no real plans, other than meeting up intentionally. I wonder if he knows that I'm going to propose, have his babies and love him for the rest of my life? Hmm... well, he'd find out soon enough.





*Zu zooms off to dinner... our boss is going back to the States... and we'd miss him more than ever....*