Bleh Bleh Bleh's and Headless Chickens

So tomorrow is the big day...

No... no - I'm not getting married...

Er... nope... not about to pop one out the oven...

Well, yeah... but no - didn't get a new job...

Look! Awright... it's just a phone interview... but being surrounded by Bleh Bleh Bleh's and Headless Chickens all day - well, I'm looking forward to it.

Ok, I lie... I'm nervous and unprepared. 4D Seismic research in Geophysics, you say? To help us better the field of Reservoir Engineering, you say?

Well... why'd you stop talking???? What else do you say????

Yes, ok, so I know that I gotta sit down and read up on the team, some of the Prof.'s papers and re-orient myself with thoughts of the not-to-distant and oh-so-defining future.

Today is all about Pressure Transient Analysis and 4D Seismic and why HW. Thank the heavens for this swanky sweater to get me through today!

*Don't we all have inspirational clothes?*

For example, tomorrow, I have the "I'm confident and smart, yet with a sense of style and poise, and wait, is that a hint that superb boobies lay beneath?" outfit yet... black is my confidence colour, a cute short black feminine jacket over a sleek and if-worn-by-itself-could-be-sexy top with the most expensive pantalones I own - a grey and professional looking black thin-striped Benneton that sits just above the hips... yes, sits... nothing too tight. I'll wear this with flats...

*whaddaheck Zu??*

Yep - see, I won't say this is my presentation-to-the-board outfit at all, but it's the combination that I need - confidence (the colour - black and greys), poise (cute fitting feminine jacket), professionalism (striped trousers) and comfort (shoes).

And of course with the curls out and about! It's so me.



Want to know a secret? I'm not really nervous, nor excited, nor expectant. This is partly because I think I won't get through, and I'm afraid of getting my hopes up to see them come crashing down... again. Defense mechanism, perhaps.

*Sure... but I'd rather call you a vag*na - with a big P*

So crude! Anways!

I want it so bad... I really do, but I don't think I'd be deemed as equipped and suited for the role. And right now, heck, I'm not! But am I willing to get up to speed? Heck yeah! With a capital H!


Switcharoo - what is it about memories that I seem to only remember the good feelings and barely ever the bad?

*Na... it's just you Zu*

Perhaps... I like to remember the good in people and our experiences...

*More like self-destruction, Dude*

You know what? I agree with you a bit... because it's selective... it's not like ALL memories are good - it depends on my desires at the moment.

*There ya go...*

I just hope that the selectiveness of the brain due to current desires *wink* doesn't get me into a regrettable rut!

Anyways - once we keep in mind that there are times when faith simply doesn't seem to exist - when we feel numb and empty - and that these times are inevitably going to creep up on us, and yet learn to accept that the difference between success and not-yet-success lies in the decision we make at that very point just where we place our next step - we might me awwwwwwwwwwwright:


The warrior of the light does not always have faith. There are times
when he does not believe in anything at all.
And he asks his heart: “Will all the effort be worthwhile?”
But the heart remains silent. And the warrior must decide for himself.
So he seeks an example. And he remembers that Jesus endured
something similar - in order to live the human condition in all its
fullness.
“Take this cup away from me,” said Jesus. He too lost heart and his
courage, but he did not stop.
The warrior of the light remains faithless.
But he moves forward nevertheless, and his faith will return.



*Move forward Zue... stop looking at your feet and where they step; look up and keep your eyes on the horizons...*