Of birds and bees...

... well, not really :)

Take a look! It's Zupa on Turtle Rock! The guy with the stick is our leader (*All hail Brian!*) and the other lady is the Engineering Specialist at my company - Liz.
It doesn't look like it, but we are very very high above sealevel on this rock that looks like a turtle's head sticking out into the deep blue in Paria (north coast of Trinidad). When the waves hit this rock, it splashes about 50 - 100 ft... or more! It was magnificent! The rock itself is about that height! So nice, eh? :) :)
Well! Again, this week has been gymming, and last weekend was hiking - whoop-tee-doo. Surprised, huh? Hehe... We went to Negmawah - a short but difficult hike - again, on the north coast on the way to Maracas. It got its name from slavery days - the French were not allowed to go there, and it became a place where the slaves would run to and escape - I can't remember the exact meaning of the word, nor which language it is, however it means basically what I just described it to be :)
That was on Saturday.
On Sunday, we went with a hiking club to the Central Range - to the Navet Dam. It was tough on my knees and ankles! Through the teak forest, there were so many rocks - big and small - so if you didn't skid on them, you twisted your ankle trying to find a path leading to the least bumsee-falls! I did, however, fall... yep, but in the dense part of the forest - on a root. All in it, ent?

This weekend... guess what my plans are... you'd NEVER expect it :) hehe... What? How'd you know I was going hiking???? Darn! You're like, psychic or something... did you study Psychology?! *Get it, Karla and Maria??? hehe*

And guess what I'll be doing this evening? This is a tricky one... :)
HUH?!?! Yes, it is training in the gym... maaaan... you're gifted! Freaky...

Hehe... ok, back to the grind - I mean, work :)

*Zuper dashes back into the land of ammonia production - now where did that steam go?*

Another week!

I'm horrible! Na... just busy again. This week I attended a three-day conference for a catalyst company (today is the last of the three days - so I'll be off in a bit again).

It's been going so well... got me thinking about a career in Chemical/Process Engineering - well, I'm already in the industry, surrounded by them... so why not? There is so much money to be made - it's luring me! Seductive... sultry.... me loves making money.

I have two more hikes this weekend... but I gots to get me new shoes... the last pair gave out on me on the way back from Paria - tut tut. See why I love money? It takes care of these things...

I'm reading the same Coehlo book... going very well. There are - as all of Coehlo's books - so many beautiful quotes... truthful quotes, actually - that's what makes them so much more beautiful:

"A fall from the third floor hurts as much as a fall from the hundredth. If I have to fall, may it be from a high place."

Somewhat true, ain't it? And beautiful - here, a woman is talking about falling in love - feeling the love right there, while battling the urge to be logical as the natural fear of losing him starts to kick in with the love growth.

Another quote has to do with the fact that when one person really wants you, everyone does, however when you are alone, no one desires you - "life is strange like that".

I am now eating an aloo-pie (potato-pie) with some serious amchar and pepper and grates cucumber... hear nuh! Fire!!!! Yummmmmmmm

*Whatever happened to getting thin to fit into my skinny jeans???*

It can wait :P My skinny jeans will always be there... this pie won't!

I want to be contentttttttted... so I'm gonna try. Ok, gotta go... takeeee care!

*Zue swishes to ponder becoming a Chem. Eng.*

A week!

... a full whole week! I have been busy up to my ears - kinda :)

Well! I have moved - fully. New curtains, packed away clothes, and slept on my bed in the new apartment for 5 nights now. It is going very very well. My roomie is cool, and we respect each other's space. However, she seems to be 'good' friends with the young indian girl from the next apartment... and - well - I don't fancy her boldfaceness. She comes in our apartment, and sits on our couch.... "Allyuh need a TV - right here so", and she gestures just infront of her. As I opened my eyes on Sunday morning - "Aye, mornin'... soooo what you gonna do for the rest of the day?"
Other irritating questions include - "You have a boyfriend?", "Yuh doh want to get cable? Wanna come over to watch TV?", "Yuh doh be bored?" and the like.
In true Ally McBeal stylin', I was running up to her and doing a body slam right there on the kitchen tiles, however, I smiled and answered - very generally. "No", "Going to mom's for lunch", "No", "No", and "No, thanks". She must think I'm a prude. Heck - she's only 19... she probably thinks alot of not too correct things. *yaow-sa!*

Apparently, me moving out is just what the doctor prescribed - my mom is not talking bad about me! Next step - having her look at me without scorn. I'm working on it (yes, by staying away - in my family, sitting and talking things out is NOT the way to go... not even an option!)

I've been home, though, a couple times this weekend - my baby bro fell ill with Bell's Palsy, and so I go to visit him, massage his face to get his motor skills in order... lawd-'a-mercy.

Also for the weekend, I went hiking! Up to Paragrant - man, 1 hour down, 1.5 hours uphill... steep, steep uphill. This really is training for the BGTT Energy Challenge... you know, on each and every hike that I do, I swear to GOD that I would NEVER EVER IN LIFE do another hike... yet who is the first to sign up??? Whew...
I swore on the hike that I was gonna die - right there and then, with the hill so steep that my nose almost touched the floor when walking up. However, I tried my best - with water, Gatorade, and carb snacks - to keep up... I really tried...
Can you believe that they (my company) chose me to be on the Challenge team????????????????? "You have GOT to be frickin' kidding me!!" - Yeah, this is what I STILL think... Now, I am not trying to be modest and humble, nor am I out to impress anyone... I really and honestly do think that I am way too unfit, and didn't do too well. However, Monday morning, I see people coming up to me - "hey, heard you did well on the hike." Errr.... ah-say-whaa? Seeeeriously... I am gonna really train at the gym - cardio-wise because the major problem was catching my breath.
And yes - thus far, I am the only woman... woof.

No - I really am not being modest and nice ... I really am a bit worried about my fitness and I think they (being the team) are mistaken... but I'm gonna work on it. We got another training hike on Saturday to Paria. God be with me. *Oh yes, I real real prayed on that hike!!!*

Why do you feel the need to constantly compare ourselves to external things? How can we control it? Can we really be just sufficiently content with what we are and have without gauging ourselves with others? When does the standard setting begin and end with our own selves? I mean... I'm all for good competition and beneficial comparison... well, not "for" it, but I get that it's somewhat human nature as it comes so naturally when in a society... but man!
I've been trying to control mine... give it some boundaries. It's slowly hitting me that different circumstances means different paths and different choices/values/etc. and so in that comparison sorta gets grey around the edges. By getting into activities - hiking, gymming, charity-ing - I felt a bit more content with myself, and stopped looking at the girl who makes so much more money than I do and who drives a newer car. But for sure - it doesn't stop - maybe like energy, it changes form, but never dies. Who knows... what I saw is that now I compare myself to - say - her in a different light - just not as competitive. I can blab eh? Presh-uh!

That's what you get for reading; reading sux arse (Southpark - episode with the chicken 'lover').

*Zue hikes to a level-er ground*

Bizzy!

I swear - I love being busy, but man! Sometimes a deadline can hover over your head until you gets the jobs done-s!

How you doin'? *Joey style*

Well! I got me an apartment! No pictures yet, and well, not for a little while again... I gotta get pillows and curtains that I like... but I got me my key, met the neighbours - and I'm all excited again!

Yes - I did get some balls and spoke to mom - but it went by so briefly - she had nothing else to say but, "Whatever Sue-Ann... your decision". Woof.

Do you know that NAMBLA is a real organisation???? Maaaannn... whew! And the way these men flower-up these relationships (Man/boy love or just boylove ... or worse Christian Boylove!) is just... well, incorrect! Ach...

Tell me - isn't this a natural thing? If you know someone that you trusted wholeheartedly, then they break that trust - not once - not twice - but several times... you get to a point where you just expect to find them doing something that required a "little white lie". Not so? I think it is... it is almost human nature - I mean, that's how we learn! For instance - you put your hand on the pretty fire... you get burnt. You try it again - maybe a different looking flame - you get burnt again that feels pretty darn much the same as the last one. The next time, you touch it with caution and second guessing yourself - yes, it is flame, so you get burnt. So, you learn - FIRE BURNS. It's the same principle, I think, with human emotional hurt - sort of. I mean, you eventually expect to get hurt/lied to/crushed by someone that has done it countless times before, right?

I hate weakness...

Anyways - so I'm buying pillows and stuff today - whoo hoow!

I'll keep you posted... *hehe*

*Zuper zips off into another dimension - hopefully with new insight and outsight on her current situations*

Month-end madness

So, the major part of my job is preparing monthly reports on the site and plants. This goes to Canada to the "Corporate" - as they call it - and so apparently it's vital. But what a vital pain in the rear it can be! Now, mind you - it ain't difficult... once you keep track of things on a daily/weekly basis, yuh business fix... now, it can be tediously monotonous, and this can get the mind to go lazy on me... and so instead of viciously pursuing any anomalities, I let it slip me by. There seems to be a problem that keeps occuring - concerning audit stuff - basically, something ain't right! Figures don't add up, and well - figures = dollars in business. Now, I can't produce anything - I just dance the dance with the figures. However I am the one expected to "know" and "recommend"... so I do know there is a big project up and coming soon...

I have to reissue some part of the report...

*Zue vooshes off to correction-land!*